Well Well, Its a new year and I have goals!

Hey Everyone, 

          Im backkkkkkk!I am extremely excited for the new year! I have an extremely good feeling about this. I will be writing new material. I want to challenge myself! I want to do so much before my life is over and I want to start NOW... I mean why wait til near death, or wait for later... Its MY LIFE AND ILL LIVE IT NOW! lol. School this point is very important and in that aspect my goals are to pass all my classes, raise that GPA, transfer to FIU. Now as for my dreams!!!! SO many things I wanna do





1. I want to model 

- so i gotta get the body to how it use to be

-make a portfolio

2. I want to act/ audition for Television (I am going to be a star)

- start search for auditions and make appearence

3. I want to get into the Music Industry!

- writing music, and lyrics

* I might begin performing at speak!

4. I want to own something ( business - wise )

5. I will be a star! 





This is what this NEW YEAR will bring!











IF you have any advice, or usueful info .. feel free to email me at tricegoeshard@yahoo.com





A few things I do:

 recent to older

Reach ME Baby, cause IM bout to start a MOVEMENT!

oovoo: mstastetherainbow
skpye (barely use): trice91
twitter: @TriceEmani 

Blogs & poetry: - tricegoeshard.blogspot.com

- My facebook: Trice Emani  {my notes, and videos}

*STAY TUNE TO IT ALL! GOOD AHH STUFF*

Welcome to MY WORLD: (enter at your own risk)

If you care... dont show it??

Hey everyone, I'm finally back. Had to write about a particular topic. So heres the thing. referring back to "less is more".. I definitely agree.. but why? I realize now a days if you want someone, you have to show them otherwise. If you like someone you have to pretend not to... and if you care... never let em know. why is it like that? why cant we revert back to the days when chilvary was intact and "more" was MORE! WHO EVER SEEMED TO CARE THE MOST.. WON OVER THE OTHERS HEART! that just makes so much sense to me, why cant we give someone our all, without being said we are  too much into their feelings or clingy.. Idk why cant be real about their feelings? Maybe it just me. But I vote "we keep it real or keep it moving" emotionally!

REPRESENTING "D" in B.A.D*P

Ms. DejaRedd
ARTIST. SINGER

Dyna, Is one of our strongest members!

With Natural singing ailities;
A child born to sing

If the name MusiqSoulchild wasnt already taken, it would be hers!

Working on this special project, Talent DejaRedd !

Support her and the Rest of B.A.D* P

come discover a world of talent!

Check us out and support!

Tell a friend!

We do it

for the

loveof Music !

Sincerely, B.A.D*P

Here is what you can expect on a BAD day :

Ms. DejaRedd

Aslo featured in :

Tonights The Night

Listen to the backround music

Also expect:

     Clickon the links that interest you :)

Ashlie1 - Pearls

Ashlie2 - Where did he go

Ashlie3 - Deuces

Patrice1 - Bittersweet
Patrice2 - Pantydroppa

Patrice3 - Jupiter Love

Patrice4 - Deuces ( rough draft)

Patrice5 - Too freaky ( rough draft)

Beatrice1- Our Model

B.A.D*P

For more info

email me at:

Tricegoeshard@yahoo.com

Kanye West Surprise Visit at Kid Cudi's LA Concert

KANYE: Bold, Loyal, Creative or Just Plain Dumb?


So Kanye decides to rapp some hard punchlines  right? However, he decides to throw in a line like " I sold my soul to the devil, i know it was a crappy deal. At least it came with a few toys like a happy meal!"   Okay now, cmon' Ye! This doesnt help the Illiminate conspiracy theory. Now i Wonder is 'Ye crying out for help, sending us a message. What is goin on with Kanye West?  Is he stupid for spitting this? Loyal to illuminati conspiracy? Or a metaphoric genius? Alot people say its a subliminal message! ! ! This is a very interesting interpretation by Youtube user : MaddenKing360 "ILLUMINATI.. HE SAYS "HE'S SO PARANOID HES WAKING UP WITH A SLIGHT COUGH".. DEY TRYNA KILL HIM IF HE TALK.. "IM ON DAT MOON TALK" MEANS HES POSSESSED.."I WONDER IF GOD ASKED MICHAEL HOW TO MOON WALK" HES TALKING ABOUT DA FACT THAT MICHAEL WAS KILLED FOR KEEPING HIS FAITH IN GOD WHEN HE SPOKE UP"  Around 2:00 minutes u hear someone say stfu lol... Man Idk 'bout yall. But maybe its time we lock or doors, read our bibles. And put the Kanye CD's down after a while. Poor Kanye Things all went downhill for him after his MOM passed away! ...

Many THOUGHTS of the week! :)

Well here is a few things I came up  with during the week :)
 adventurous writings I call them!


*I use to cry and pout when it was all ovah. But i stopped, realizing that after me u turn into a straight NO1. So im just grateful for havin da best of you when i had yuh. And im satisfied knowin ya next chick will never compare to dis badd one. And she will never get da topknotch love dat i had bruh. So in the end i won, i got u at ur best, and i guess she just got u at ur worst, huh?" :)

**‎"Never do it for the fans or hater, they just might not notice. I do it for myself, keep my head straight and focus. I aint waiting on that magic sh** like poof hocuspocus. Im maken moves never ask ima beast, taken grown risks. And its either u with me or u can suck dis d*** here and choke b**** !" Haha i just had a #drizzy moment

***Patrice Alvarez- Ive never been da type to always give a f*** ... So pardon me if you spill your heart out and i just dgaf! :)

****Why speak the words you spoke, when in your heart you know.. That meaning of the words you speak are just as weak as the words you spoke. Understand? ♥

*****I dont know which one i dislike more... mispelling words or going back to correct them so the person i am holding a conversation with doesnt assume i am somewhat slow or lack intelligence. -.- lol

How do i feel about this line " im not like any other nigga you met"?

Cause everytime  i hear that line " i fall for it again, see i fall for them. Crazy how it be the same sorry story. But they claim they 'different' men. yeah its a trend. guess the mistake on my side must end. so now i run from them and say fuck all dem"




~*POEM*~

DREAM MAN

Is been a while since I've heard you laugh,

and seen you smile.

And yes, I wonder sometimes why

its been that long of a while.

Months since I've touched your lips,

and days since i seen your face.

And thought its been that long,

I never found one ready to take your place.

Maybe its because I'm living in our past;

unable to see what the present brings.

I reminisce on the golden days,

when my heart would rejoice and sing.

And as I smile in my memories,

Everything fades and the memories just stop!

My body paralyzed before you,

only my mouth moves to drop.

Unable to think, unable to  move,

I am unable to breathe!

Unable to scream, unable to leave,

 unable to say a word it seems..

because the man who stand before me in reality..

ISNT the same man from my past memories and present dreams.

Dirty Little Secrets "It Feels.. I Feel... I mean...WELL... Numb"

ALOT of people feel it, know it, look back on it.. laugh about it... read about it.. but sometimes the best thing to do is... talk about it. EXTREME DEPRESSION. I went through it. I had it real bad. Some days you wonder why you were put on earth.. or wish that you didnt wake up the next morning. {Bare with me a bit...i am unfolding myself and speaking of true life stories. its a little hard for me sometimes *CRIES*}I've always been the goofy girl. The one who always smile, and make sure my entourage does so too. Im the type of girl who likes to kick it have a good time! The "NORMAL" girl, so everyone thought. WELCOME TO THE WORLD OF MY DIRTY LITTLE SECRETS!    There were night i cried myself to sleep. I wondered how i had ever let it get so bad. I cried, i fought, i lashed out.. I was angry ..but most of all I was UNHAPPY.. depressed without a reason. Now before you jugde me, let me tell you about myself... I grew up in America. I have a twin sister and a brother, and as a child i had everything I wanted, most importantly everything I needed. I was not deprived. Most of my life i lived in a nice home. I lived with BOTH MY PARENTS. (before the divorce). I had a lot of friends. You may ask why I am telling you all this. Its simple! You dont have to be deprived, weird, an outcast to be depressed. It happens to the best of us. It happened to me. I am sharing this with evryone because I hope in terms this may help anyone who suffers from depression. Get help, talk to someone Its okay to know that you are depressed. It IS NOT okay to suffer from it! Depressive disorders affect approximately 18.8 million American adults or about 9.5% of the U.S. population age 18 and older in a given year. This includes major depressive disorder, dysthymic disorder, and bipolar disorder. Everyone, will at some time in their life be affected by depression -- their own or someone else's, according to Australian Government statistics.

http://www.upliftprogram.com/depression_stats.html


My Depression:
I brace myself as I revealed the secrets that  never thought i would reveal and that I've held on to so long. At age 14, I fell in "love". Needless to say it came with many hearbreaks. The teen life got a great hold of me. Peer pressure, Love, challenges, stress , friends, fitting in, school! You know it funny how many parents say that kids have nothing to worry about. Its almost as if they forgot how hard it is to fit in. How time have changed. How you can be taunted for little things as stupid as what u have, who you hang with, what you wear, or how u speak. High School may not be the exaggerative version of what teen movies show. But its damn near close to it. I was tease in middle school. No sad story there. I got over it lol. but sometimes it the foundation of were you been  that can take you where you are. Ive alway been sensitive. But I alway put on this "hard front". Sometimes I lied to MYSELF about what hurted, what i cared about. At age 15, i found myself in a verbally abusive relationship. One that would last for four years. As i went through my years of high school. I found it harder to get up. Harder to try, Harder to breathe. And Harder to leave the love and peer pressure that surrounded me, and then suffocated me. I find myself at home, one day in the bathroom, with tears in my eyes and a blade to my skin; cutting the very flesh i was blessed to have. I can't tell you how i got there or even why. What became an experience now became a habit later. Sometimes it was for pleasure other times to block out the emotional hurt. Age 17, July 23 2008. I texted my love ones 'bye' and locked the door. I suddenly found myself on the floor, tear streaks, blood running down my arm, and a belt around my neck. It was by GOD's will that my sister and cousin opened the door...( who knows how the door got unlocked, i had double checked it)  my sister and cousin in next room felt the intensity  and broke into my room hysterically crying over me. As I layed lifelessly on the floor with nothing but a heavy heartbeat. it was only THEN i realized that I needed help! I talked about it. took small steps! Surrounded myself with positive people. I believe it was the pondering of the 'door' situation that spoke to me. silly i know.. for days and weeks i wonder how they got through the door. I wondered was that God's message telling me "its not my time". By his grace and mercy i was SAVED! I consider myself one of the lucky ones. Its never too late to help yourself. And when the going gets tough... TALK ABOUT IT!

http://www.webmd.com/depression/guide/depression-types

**If you feel you maybe suffering from depression
The key symptoms of atypical depression include:
Overeating


Oversleeping


Fatigue


Extreme sensitivity to rejection


Moods that worsen or improve in direct response to events


Regular depression, on the other hand, tends to be marked by pervasive sadness.


TALK ABOUT IT! Dont be afraid to get HELP! I'll have an open ear ! YOU ARE NOT STRANGE WEIRD OR DUMB! We are all human. I am just like YOU!
 
if anyone needs a friend, you can always reach me at my email Tricegoeshard@yahoo.comm
 
Dont be afraid to just TALK ABOUT IT! :) It can make all the differece