If you care... dont show it??

Hey everyone, I'm finally back. Had to write about a particular topic. So heres the thing. referring back to "less is more".. I definitely agree.. but why? I realize now a days if you want someone, you have to show them otherwise. If you like someone you have to pretend not to... and if you care... never let em know. why is it like that? why cant we revert back to the days when chilvary was intact and "more" was MORE! WHO EVER SEEMED TO CARE THE MOST.. WON OVER THE OTHERS HEART! that just makes so much sense to me, why cant we give someone our all, without being said we are  too much into their feelings or clingy.. Idk why cant be real about their feelings? Maybe it just me. But I vote "we keep it real or keep it moving" emotionally!

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Kanye West Surprise Visit at Kid Cudi's LA Concert

KANYE: Bold, Loyal, Creative or Just Plain Dumb?


So Kanye decides to rapp some hard punchlines  right? However, he decides to throw in a line like " I sold my soul to the devil, i know it was a crappy deal. At least it came with a few toys like a happy meal!"   Okay now, cmon' Ye! This doesnt help the Illiminate conspiracy theory. Now i Wonder is 'Ye crying out for help, sending us a message. What is goin on with Kanye West?  Is he stupid for spitting this? Loyal to illuminati conspiracy? Or a metaphoric genius? Alot people say its a subliminal message! ! ! This is a very interesting interpretation by Youtube user : MaddenKing360 "ILLUMINATI.. HE SAYS "HE'S SO PARANOID HES WAKING UP WITH A SLIGHT COUGH".. DEY TRYNA KILL HIM IF HE TALK.. "IM ON DAT MOON TALK" MEANS HES POSSESSED.."I WONDER IF GOD ASKED MICHAEL HOW TO MOON WALK" HES TALKING ABOUT DA FACT THAT MICHAEL WAS KILLED FOR KEEPING HIS FAITH IN GOD WHEN HE SPOKE UP"  Around 2:00 minutes u hear someone say stfu lol... Man Idk 'bout yall. But maybe its time we lock or doors, read our bibles. And put the Kanye CD's down after a while. Poor Kanye Things all went downhill for him after his MOM passed away! ...

Many THOUGHTS of the week! :)

Well here is a few things I came up  with during the week :)
 adventurous writings I call them!


*I use to cry and pout when it was all ovah. But i stopped, realizing that after me u turn into a straight NO1. So im just grateful for havin da best of you when i had yuh. And im satisfied knowin ya next chick will never compare to dis badd one. And she will never get da topknotch love dat i had bruh. So in the end i won, i got u at ur best, and i guess she just got u at ur worst, huh?" :)

**‎"Never do it for the fans or hater, they just might not notice. I do it for myself, keep my head straight and focus. I aint waiting on that magic sh** like poof hocuspocus. Im maken moves never ask ima beast, taken grown risks. And its either u with me or u can suck dis d*** here and choke b**** !" Haha i just had a #drizzy moment

***Patrice Alvarez- Ive never been da type to always give a f*** ... So pardon me if you spill your heart out and i just dgaf! :)

****Why speak the words you spoke, when in your heart you know.. That meaning of the words you speak are just as weak as the words you spoke. Understand? ♥

*****I dont know which one i dislike more... mispelling words or going back to correct them so the person i am holding a conversation with doesnt assume i am somewhat slow or lack intelligence. -.- lol

How do i feel about this line " im not like any other nigga you met"?

Cause everytime  i hear that line " i fall for it again, see i fall for them. Crazy how it be the same sorry story. But they claim they 'different' men. yeah its a trend. guess the mistake on my side must end. so now i run from them and say fuck all dem"




~*POEM*~

DREAM MAN

Is been a while since I've heard you laugh,

and seen you smile.

And yes, I wonder sometimes why

its been that long of a while.

Months since I've touched your lips,

and days since i seen your face.

And thought its been that long,

I never found one ready to take your place.

Maybe its because I'm living in our past;

unable to see what the present brings.

I reminisce on the golden days,

when my heart would rejoice and sing.

And as I smile in my memories,

Everything fades and the memories just stop!

My body paralyzed before you,

only my mouth moves to drop.

Unable to think, unable to  move,

I am unable to breathe!

Unable to scream, unable to leave,

 unable to say a word it seems..

because the man who stand before me in reality..

ISNT the same man from my past memories and present dreams.

Dirty Little Secrets "It Feels.. I Feel... I mean...WELL... Numb"

ALOT of people feel it, know it, look back on it.. laugh about it... read about it.. but sometimes the best thing to do is... talk about it. EXTREME DEPRESSION. I went through it. I had it real bad. Some days you wonder why you were put on earth.. or wish that you didnt wake up the next morning. {Bare with me a bit...i am unfolding myself and speaking of true life stories. its a little hard for me sometimes *CRIES*}I've always been the goofy girl. The one who always smile, and make sure my entourage does so too. Im the type of girl who likes to kick it have a good time! The "NORMAL" girl, so everyone thought. WELCOME TO THE WORLD OF MY DIRTY LITTLE SECRETS!    There were night i cried myself to sleep. I wondered how i had ever let it get so bad. I cried, i fought, i lashed out.. I was angry ..but most of all I was UNHAPPY.. depressed without a reason. Now before you jugde me, let me tell you about myself... I grew up in America. I have a twin sister and a brother, and as a child i had everything I wanted, most importantly everything I needed. I was not deprived. Most of my life i lived in a nice home. I lived with BOTH MY PARENTS. (before the divorce). I had a lot of friends. You may ask why I am telling you all this. Its simple! You dont have to be deprived, weird, an outcast to be depressed. It happens to the best of us. It happened to me. I am sharing this with evryone because I hope in terms this may help anyone who suffers from depression. Get help, talk to someone Its okay to know that you are depressed. It IS NOT okay to suffer from it! Depressive disorders affect approximately 18.8 million American adults or about 9.5% of the U.S. population age 18 and older in a given year. This includes major depressive disorder, dysthymic disorder, and bipolar disorder. Everyone, will at some time in their life be affected by depression -- their own or someone else's, according to Australian Government statistics.

http://www.upliftprogram.com/depression_stats.html


My Depression:
I brace myself as I revealed the secrets that  never thought i would reveal and that I've held on to so long. At age 14, I fell in "love". Needless to say it came with many hearbreaks. The teen life got a great hold of me. Peer pressure, Love, challenges, stress , friends, fitting in, school! You know it funny how many parents say that kids have nothing to worry about. Its almost as if they forgot how hard it is to fit in. How time have changed. How you can be taunted for little things as stupid as what u have, who you hang with, what you wear, or how u speak. High School may not be the exaggerative version of what teen movies show. But its damn near close to it. I was tease in middle school. No sad story there. I got over it lol. but sometimes it the foundation of were you been  that can take you where you are. Ive alway been sensitive. But I alway put on this "hard front". Sometimes I lied to MYSELF about what hurted, what i cared about. At age 15, i found myself in a verbally abusive relationship. One that would last for four years. As i went through my years of high school. I found it harder to get up. Harder to try, Harder to breathe. And Harder to leave the love and peer pressure that surrounded me, and then suffocated me. I find myself at home, one day in the bathroom, with tears in my eyes and a blade to my skin; cutting the very flesh i was blessed to have. I can't tell you how i got there or even why. What became an experience now became a habit later. Sometimes it was for pleasure other times to block out the emotional hurt. Age 17, July 23 2008. I texted my love ones 'bye' and locked the door. I suddenly found myself on the floor, tear streaks, blood running down my arm, and a belt around my neck. It was by GOD's will that my sister and cousin opened the door...( who knows how the door got unlocked, i had double checked it)  my sister and cousin in next room felt the intensity  and broke into my room hysterically crying over me. As I layed lifelessly on the floor with nothing but a heavy heartbeat. it was only THEN i realized that I needed help! I talked about it. took small steps! Surrounded myself with positive people. I believe it was the pondering of the 'door' situation that spoke to me. silly i know.. for days and weeks i wonder how they got through the door. I wondered was that God's message telling me "its not my time". By his grace and mercy i was SAVED! I consider myself one of the lucky ones. Its never too late to help yourself. And when the going gets tough... TALK ABOUT IT!

http://www.webmd.com/depression/guide/depression-types

**If you feel you maybe suffering from depression
The key symptoms of atypical depression include:
Overeating


Oversleeping


Fatigue


Extreme sensitivity to rejection


Moods that worsen or improve in direct response to events


Regular depression, on the other hand, tends to be marked by pervasive sadness.


TALK ABOUT IT! Dont be afraid to get HELP! I'll have an open ear ! YOU ARE NOT STRANGE WEIRD OR DUMB! We are all human. I am just like YOU!
 
if anyone needs a friend, you can always reach me at my email Tricegoeshard@yahoo.comm
 
Dont be afraid to just TALK ABOUT IT! :) It can make all the differece

Free

Ama do a little of free write and poetry <3 enjoy
Hey guys its your girl Trice. I feel so inspired from different directions and i wanna express that. Ima try this thing.. they call it free-writing. Im just going to use this blog to write from the heart. But from the heart... I feel like i have no sense of direction..

*I look each direction to find  previous footprint
MY own footprints, its been a while since..
since i traveled these broken rocky roads
im back at this again in circles.
sights, love, dreams.. VISION
so many choices, too dificult for one decision!
why does it feel like i traveled back in time
why am i racing against my timeline.....

You see guys its like this. My mind races against time.. every second that strikes the clock.. i feel as if i wasnt prepared. like... time is going on without me because... i stay behind in my regrets. So many things i wanna do but never did. I almost feel like i failed life or life has failed me. and dont realize in that moment i am truly failing only because i believe so... and i waste every moment in self-pity not acknowledging that the clock keeps ticking

*The clock moves without heart soul or mind
because it does not mind me nor love me
the clock is far from kind
it continues, flies by me.. runs over me,
The clock will kill, it murdered time!
this precious time of mine
but the clock ticks tocks about its way
it moves my body into another day
but my mind and soul is stuck on yesterday...

i guess my biggest trouble and regrets are based on love... you see yall.. i am the biggest B**** ... but im a sucker for love. But boy oh boy has this "love" CRAP been my biggest downfall. i love too hard i love too strong... sometimes loving someone else becomes my identity... "fxck love im tired of trying" -Tyga ; who even knows what Love is

*Love is what love wants
Love does as it taunts
precious love and its memories
its my dear love that hinders me
you see love has never done a damn thang
but love will hold its note as it sangs
'remember when you use to love me?
oh how our love was lovely'.
remember him,her, remember this
remember how good it felt to kiss
love... oh love.. ignorance is bliss
we  are left only to reminisce
cause love is no longer what it was
we reminsce because there is no us
love has no mercy, it holds its own twist
because love wants to be what  love is..
for the moment!

okay.. okay, so im a little emotional from these heartbreaks! so what?! I bet youre a bitter hag too! i just expressed it better than you! lol haha! I can't even go into details of the many stories in my life.. and it gets more into depth.. no ONE word can portray my whole lifestyle and life stories. too much has happened... but maybe thats what makes my life indescribable.. irreplaceable.. its what makes me.. ME ... and i love it! I promise my life gets more interesting! and if you wanna know. I'll tell you so... Just ask... and the stories begin


** if you have any particular questions about my life.. anything you want know ( doesnt matter how crazy )... ASK AWAY!** I keeps it realz... :) Go hard or go home! :)

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Poetry Moves Me...

Paralysis

As he walked in the room I held my breath..
felt if i exhaled one more time i would have no oxygen left
I played cool, made no sudden movements.. and left no clues
Truth is.... I couldnt even move if i wanted to.
His presence paralyzed every muscle i had ever used.
almost like he remove my brains every right to choose.
So I swallowed hard and struggled to breathe as my heart builded up a race
Every second build a memory of every mistake i had ever made.
I believe it started the day I met you and made connection with your eyes
and it ended the day i left you, turned around and said goodbye.
A snap back to reality...  as he slowly walked out and finally he left
I panicked to catch my very breath
hmm Guess the side affect of love is ......
your presence will forever bring me PARALYSIS

Well this poem was definetly inspired by a past relationship! Ever had that moment when your ex or former significant other walks in the room... and your not sure if s/he feels it.. but that moment feels slowed down... you suddenly feel your heart beat in every part of your body.. and sweat drips into your pores. You wanna play hard to get or act mad cool  but make the biggest fool of yourself.. or even worse s/he  walks out of the room without even acknowledgeing your presence. Ex on your mind? Talk bout it.. Whats your percerption on being stuck on the ex...

Introducing The Blogger !

Patrice Alvarez

Alongside with me being the main blogger for the site, I will be having my personal website editor/designer help me out. He as well has his own blog, and can be found on twitter.com/aj_byles

Without him none of this would be possible, please visit his blog at timeless101.blogspot.com

Stay tuned for fun filled posts that will keep you all so entertained. GO HARD OR GO HOME :)